"If there is a God, He will have to beg my forgiveness."
"Sometimes I go for days without speaking to a soul. I think, “I should make that call”, but I put it off. Because there’s something pleasurable about not talking. But then I love talking, so it’s not that. But sometimes it can be nice. It’s not like I sit here philosophizing, because I’ve no talent for that. It’s just this thing about silence that’s so wonderful."
Even if I believed you when you said I will find things worth living for, I wouldn’t care. I’m not interested in finding anything, I’m not set on finding a remedy, of easing the pain. I am not looking to be fixed. I am disappearing and this is what I want. This is what has made it all worth something to me; the beautiful relief of losing myself into invisibility. Oh the relief. Oh the relief.